almost screwing up...

i almost made a huge mistake today. i woke up extremely aroused and thinking about Keymistress Akasha. when am i not thinking about Her anymore. i was only half awake and reached into my dresser to get my vibrator. by using it on Keymistress' balls and between my thighs, i thought maybe i could get a little relief. it actually did begin to work - then i came to my senses - it didn't have permission to do this! i stopped immediately. i had not cum, the chastity took care of that aspect. but i knew that i owed Keymistress Akasha an apology for my weakness. after getting up i emailed it immediately. i promised Her that will not happen again. it won't.